Haphazard Wanderings

*I'm tired of being the girl who doesn't get the guy because she's too busy trying not to make a fool of herself. Unfortunately, I'm not really sure how to remedy this. I'm open to suggestions.

*I'm looking forward to spending some time at home: not in Saskatoon, although that'll be fun too, but really at home. I can't wait to go walking at night and look up and see all of the stars from one end of the sky to the other. I love the country. There's never enough time to spend looking at the apple trees while they're blooming or at the stars while they're shining (I know it's cheesy, but you know it's true).

*I think I'm going to use a bike as my main mode of transportation this summer. I'm looking forward to it. Maybe I'll actually have a tan by August. I'll probably have to wear a helmet, though... I hadn't thought of that...

*Jo, how'd it go with the movie and your apartment and all that? I'm curious. You should blog and let us know.

*I saw a very pregnant girl today with a cute husband and an adorable little boy. She was around my age and looked so happy - I wished I was her. And then I remembered something:

*My new resolution is to be like my grandma. She was single until she was 29 or 30, which was unusual for her time. She really used those years: got a professional degree, enjoyed her job and was good at it, took the opportunity to travel with a close friend, and generally made the most of the time she had. And then when she met my grandpa she'd done a lot of cool stuff and was ready to settle down and raise my dad and my aunt. She's a great lady to the present day and I hope to be like her.

My other grandma wasn't single quite as long, but she had a similar story: spent time on her own, worked and loved her job, had a great time with friends, kept up really close ties with her family, and finally settled down with my grandpa to a long and happy life together. When I was at their 50th wedding anniversary a few years ago I realized that this is what I want: not a career, although I have no problem with spending a few years working and doing a good job of it, but a family and a life in a community where people know each other and recognise and celebrate their interdependence. It's a good life. I'm not sure how I'm going to manage it, with the farm economy going down and good country boys running short, but I'm looking for a way. We'll see if I stick to the course.