Think Happy Thoughts

I'm getting very panicky about school, so I've decided to take a few minutes to think happy thoughts and make some wishes. The happy thought is that I'll be home for a bit in just a few weeks. As for wishes, I've decided that if I can't have a pony I'd like the following:
*Good Earth Tea: my brother got me some of this when he was going to school in the states and it was wonderful. Absolutely delicious.
*Django Reinhardt: I'm not even sure if I've ever heard a recording of this guy, but he's got the best name ever and I love swing music, so I'm sure it would be excellent.
*Pablo Neruda: I would really like a book of his poems. Absolutely beautiful.
*Burt's Bees Milk & Honey Lotion: smells like the Promised Land.
*Brahms: my next CD purchase will be Brahms' piano concertos. I've been wanting them for a while. Maybe that'll be a post-exam reward.
*Jazz lessons: Piano lessons! What fun! I'd like to make some time this summer and find a teacher/coach who'll clue me into how I can get better at improvisation & stuff. Hopefully I'll make the time.
*Ryan Adams: although his music is more sad than happy, I love it.
*Apple crisp: I'm hoping there are enough apples in the fridge to make me one of these tomorrow. Mmmm for cinnamon and sugar.
*Kittens: I am getting a kitten when I graduate & get a place on my own. There was a Siamese cat in a window down by the water the other day and I just loved it. Dogs are lovable, but cats are so funny and independent and... clean. This would normally not be a huge factor, but after living with the two little fluffballs in this house I've decided that small dogs are not for me. Big dogs aren't an option until I have a farm or at least a yard, so a cat will have to suffice in the meantime.

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What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Places to go, people to see

Frivolous things I want to do in my lifetime:
- Go to Majie-Shuhui (the largest folk art gathering in China)
- Go to Mongolia: visit people living in yurts, learn the language, ride a Mongolian horse, acquire traditional Mongolian wardrobe.
- Visit Wat Pha Luang Ta Bua in Thailand and pet a tiger
- Participate in La Tomatina, a tomato fight that occurs between 11 am and 1 pm on the last Wednesday in every August at the Plaza del Pueblo in Bunol, Spain
- Be a part of the Venice Carnival: beautiful mask, elaborate costume, the whole deal
- Ride a horse at Becky's ranch! (I can't believe it hasn't happened yet.)
- See the chuck-wagon races at the Calgary Stampede

Confession

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."

I think there's some benefit to open confession, so here goes: I've been not what I want to be. In the last couple of months I've let a lot of things slide. Before anyone starts to panic, I haven't been living in sin or carousing drunkenly through the city or anything like that. What I mean is that I've been treating people carelessly, following my emotions instead of my mind and heart, and settling for a lot less from myself and from other people than I would normally expect. I've been refusing to challenge myself and have let go of a lot of things that mean a lot to me. I've let myself exclude and hurt people who are very important to me. I've been faithless and selfish. I've prided myself on my judgment and then neglected to use it. And I'm sorry. So if any of you who've been affected are reading this, please forgive me. To the world at large, please forgive me. Please call me on it in the future.

Thanks and blessings.

Nance

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You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts. You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary. But you sure can beat a good drum. "Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

Being One

I love people and I love community but I also love being alone. There is nothing quite like wandering home in the middle of the night with only the buses and the streetlights for company. I love running and walking and looking up into the freezing rain with no witness and no one to bring me down. I had a fantastic time out tonight (three cheers for Ruby Jean and the Thoughtful Bees!), but even better was the solitary ramble at the end through snow and sleet and wind so strong I'd swear I was on the prairies again. Some kinds of wonder are blunted by multiplicity; some kinds of beauty can only be known in solitude. Praise the God I love for this good night! Good night...